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"Nick was a big, strong, tough man who worked in the railroad yards for many years. He was one of his company’s best employees—always there on time, a reliable, hard worker who got along well with the other employees. But Nick had one major problem. His attitude was chronically negative. He was known around the railroad yards as the most pessimistic man on the job. He perpetually feared the worst and constantly worried, fretting that something bad might hapen.

One summer day, the crews were told that they could go home an hour early in order to celebrate the birthday of one of the foremen. All the workers left, but somehow Nick accidentally locked himself in a refrigerated boxcar that had been brought into the yard for maintenance. The boxcar was empty and not connected to any of the trains.

When Nick realized that he was locked inside the refrigerated bixcar, he panicked. Nick began beating on the doors so hard that his arms and fists became bloody. He screamed and screamed, but his coworkers had already gone hime to get ready for the party. Nobody could hear Nick’s desperate calls for help. Again and again he called out, until finally his voice was a raspy whisper.

Aware that he was in a refrigerated boxcar, Nick guessed that the temperature in the unit was well below freezing, maybe as low as five or ten degrees Fahrenheit. Nick feared the worst. He thought, What am I going to do? if I don’t get out of here, I’m going to freeze to death. There’s no way I can stay in here all night. The more he thought about his circumstances, the colder he became. With the door shut tightly, and no apparent way of escape, he sat down to await his inevitable death by freezing or suffocation, whichever came first.

To pass the time, he decided to chronicle his demise. He found a pen in his shirt pocket and noticed an old piece of cardboard in the corner of the car. Shivering almost uncontrollably, he scribbled a message to his family. In it Nick noted his dire prospects: "Getting cold. Body numb. If I don’t get out soon, these will probably be my last words. "

And they were.

The next morning, when the crews came to work, they opened the boxcar and found Nick’s body crumpled over in the corner. When the autopsy was completed, it revealed that Nick had indeed frozen to death.

Now, here’s a fascinating enigma: The investigators discovered that the refrigeration unit for the car in which Nick had been trapped was not even on! In fact, it had been out of order for some time and was not functioning at the time of the man’s death. The temperature in the car that night — the night Nick froze to death — was sixty-one degrees. Nick froze to death in slightly less than normal room temperatures because he believed that he was in a freezing boxcar. He expected to die! He was convinced that he didn’t have a chance. He expected the worst. He saw himself as doomed with no way out. He lost the battle in his own mind.

For Nick, the thing he feared and expected to happen came to pass. The old adage "Life is a self-fulfilling prophesy" held true for him. It will usually be true in your life as well. Many people today are similar to Nick. They’re always expectng the worst. They expect defeat. They expect failure. They expect mediocrity. And they usually get what they expect; they become what they belive."

–> from the book: "Your Best Life Now" by Joel Osteen

"The timeless story The Tale of Three Trees. This fictitious children’s book relates the lofty aspirations of an olive tree, an oak tree, and a pine tree. Each of these trees had a great dream to become something special in life. The olive tree dreamed of becoming a finely crafted treasure chest. It wanted to hold gold, silver, and precious jewels. One day a woodsman chose the one olive tree, out of all the trees in the forest, and cut it down. The olive tree was so thrilled. But as the craftsmen began working on him, the tree realized they weren’t making him into a beautiful treasure chest; they were making him into a manger to hold food for dirty, smelly animals. Hearthbroken, his dreams were shattered. He felt worthless and demeaned.

Similarly, the oak tree dreamed of becoming part of a huge ship that would carry important kings across the ocean. When the woodsman cut down the oak, he was so excited. But as time went on, he realized the craftsmen weren’t making him into a huge ship. They were making him into a tiny fishing boat. He was so discouraged, so disappointed.

The pine tree lived on top of a high mountain. Its only dream was to always stand tall and remind people of God’s great creation. But in a split second, a bolt of lightning sent it tumbling to the ground, destroying its dreams. The woodsman came and picked it up and carried it off to the scrap pile.

All three of these trees felt they had lost their value and their worth; they were so discouraged, so disappointed. Not one of their dreams had come to pass. But God had other plans for these trees. Many years later, Mary and Joseph couldn’t find any place to give birth to their little baby boy. They finally found a stable, and when Jesus was born they placed Him in a manger made from — you guessed it — the olive tree. The olive tree had wanted to hold precious jewels, but God had better plans, and it now held the greatest treasure of all times, the Son of God.

A few years went by and Jesus grew up. One day He needed a boat to cross to the other side of the lake. He didn’t choose a large, fancy ship; He chose a small, simple fishing boat made from — you guessed it — the oak tree. The oak tree wanted to carry important kings across the ocean, but God had better plans. The oak now carried the King of kings."

A few more years went by, and one day some Roman soldiers were rummaging around in the pile of scrap wood where the discarded pine tree lay. That pine tree just knew they were coming to cut him up for firewood. But much to its surprise, they cut only two small pieces out of it and formed them into a cross. And it was on this pine tree that Jesus was crucified. That tree is still pointing people to God’s love and God’s compassion to this day.

The point of the classic story is clear: All three trees thought they had lost their value, that their stories were over, yet they became integral parts of the greatest story ever told.

God knows your value; He sees your potential. You may not understand everything you are going throught right now. But hold your head up high, knowing that God is in control and He has a great plan and purpose for your life. Your dreams may not have turned out exactly as you’d hoped, but the Bible says that God’s ways are better and higher than our ways. Even when everybody else rejects you, remember, God stands before you with His arms open wide. He always accepts you. He always confirms your value. God sees your two good moves! You are His prized possession. No matter what you go through in life, no matter how many disappointments you suffer, your value in God’s eyes always remains the same. You will always be the apple of His eye. He will never give up on you, so don’t give up on yourself."

–> from the book "Your Best Life Now by Joel Osteen"

"people have different outlooks in love. but whatever those are, there’s only a single truth behind everyone’s heartache: " LOVE hurts when God know we deserve someone else.""

tama diba?

YOU CHANGE MY LIFE IN A MOMENT

The night’s disguise was filled with clouds
My world with mine was filled with grief
I couldn’t  count  all the lonely hours
Spent  with memories and tears

I never thought I would see the day
When I could throw all my sorrow away
But then you came and you showed me the way
You have made all those times disappear

Chorus:

You change my life in a moment
And I’ll never be the same again
You change my life in a moment
And it s hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand
When the moment of time
All my sorrow is  gone

I never thought that I could change
Could change so much in so many ways
I’m still surprise when I look in my mirror
To see that I still look the same

(Repeat  chorus 2x)

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praying, praying and praying…

is it a mistake or a sin…. to pray for something? if God will answer those prayers… if that is His will… who can question that and say that its not right thing to do? who will stop His will to fulfill? who will say that it is not good? to obey what i know is right? to intercede and pray for something too messy to handle?

"fallen seven times, stand up eight"

i just like that phrase. it speaks a lot to my life. and it’s really true. i fallen so many times (not just seven times) but i was able to stand up (more than eight). not because i am strong or i want to bounce back from the situation but because i laid so much to a very strong and unmovable Foundation that keeps on holding me specially to the times that i was so weak, really foolish and very self-centered…

situations on my life that makes me so down because of the fall and it almost crush me into pieces. i was broken inside, full of lies, condemnation and so much fear. i almost give up everything because of shame and fear for him, for all those mistakes and foolishness and unwise decisions that i made against him. i am crying out loud inside. i can’t help it. i feel like am not worthy of his love for me.

He was so great, so loving, so gentleman, so soft, so faithful. despite all the hurts that i’ve given to him, his love never fades, his love was never lessen even a little bit. He still sees me beautiful inside out. He still loves me so unconditionally. and because of that love, he manage to restore and bring me back again into his arms. forgetting everything, as if nothing happens. forgetting all the hurts and pains that i cause to him. i can’t ask anything more than to live forever with his love. how great to live a life with my lover, my bestfriend, my supporter, my ultimate fan, my father, my saviour, my Lord and my God…no one else than Jesus Christ.

FINDING YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE

For those who wasn’t able to attend- I’ll try my best to share this to you. Hope you learn something as much as I do.

For those who attended, you can freely give your comments, anything you learned or even add something here. Maybe I miss something.

Thanks! Here it goes: (Please bear with me, this is kinda long, because this is a two day seminar)

PROVERBS 18:22

"He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD."

- "true love waits" — this is only applicable to teenagers, because they really have to wait
- true love have to act, do the move

- having a trial and error relationship (have bf/gf now, if doesn’t work, have another one) is like a scatch tape that has been used again and again. the time you really want to use it permanently, it will no longer work properly because it is already used. that’s why there are lots of marriages that does not work to last.

Mark 10: 1-9
Genesis 2:15-25
- it is not good for you to be alone. when God saw that Adam was alone, he said, "it is not good for a men to be alone" that’s why He created Eve for Adam to have a partner.
- Jesus seeing you alone, with no relationship (no partner) makes Him say "not good…". He wants to give you a life time partner.
- marriage is an idea that comes from God.

6 QUESTIONS ABOUT FINDING YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE:
1. WHERE- it depends. for me, (hayzel), i think you can find your one true love if you are in the right place where God wants you to be. its a matter of obedience.

2. HOW - make an act, find it.
- widen your circle of opportunities. meet a lot of people. be friendly. be attractive. be approachable.
ACTS TO DO:
1. build a team: include your family, friends, churchmates–tell them what’s happening to your life. pray with them or ask them to pray for you
2. grow your character
3. get emotionally healty
4. know what you are and know what you want– qualifications you want to a partner, write them down, pray for it

3. WHEN - Proverbs 18:22; Song of Solomon 3:2
- it is God who bring people together but you have to do your part. you have a very important role to play. example: God promised that you will be prosperous and successful, but it doesn’t mean that you can just sleep and do nothing. you have to do something, have a job, have business or something then God will prosper you.  another is salvation. Salvation is freely given by God but your role is to make a decision to accept it and live by it.

When to go searching? 3 criterias:
1. Spiritually ready- be in mind that it is only God that can ONLY complete you. be in love first to God.
2. Emotionally ready- capable of long term relationships
3. Financially ready- this does not mean you have to be rich first before entering marriage. you must have a job, be financially stable–means you can and willing to work hard to provide for your future family. if you cant even rent an appartment, don’t think marriage.

4. WHO: - 1 Corinthians 7:39
- you are free anyone you choose but he/she MUST belong to the Lord (must be a Christian) but (another BUT) that person MUST like you also. you cannot give the verse John 15:16, "you did not chose me but i choose you". hehehe

5. WHY: 

**to glorify God– if that relationship will not glorify God, forget it. we must bring glory to Him in every thing we do, in every area of our lives including relationships. make God happy and He will make sure that you will be more happier.
** to give and receive love

How would you know if you are in love?
infatution- seeing that person as handsome as Sam Milby, as funny as Michael V., etc. etc. (to summarize, seeing that person as "perfect")
true love- goes beyond the imperfection of that person; accepting that person as who he/she is.

6: WHAT- What is true love?
3 Greek words:
1. Erros- romantic kind of love; with physical attraction; with feeling
2. Philia- companionship; friendship– that person must be your good friend and companion
3. Agape- unconditional love– you cannot give what you dont have. this can only be given if you received this from God who is the source of unconditional love

Love is the mixture of this 3.

Somebody says this to me (not personally but in mail):

" There comes a time when you must stand alone. You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams. You must be willing to make sacrifices. You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved. Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged. There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities. Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better. Be confident enough that you won’t settle for a compromise just to get by. Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life. Don’t stand in someone else’s shadow when it’s your sunlight     There comes a time when you must stand alone. You must feel confident enough within yours. "

saya…

smile!

Sometimes I wonder
How I’d ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn’t have a clue

‘Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world’s closing in on me,
And there’s no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything’s alright,
everything’s alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there’s nothing in this world
that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It’s like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don’t feel it,
’cause you’re here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I’ll ever need,
you’re all I’ll ever need

Chorus

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything’s alright,
everything’s alright

So right…